OH MY GOD I JUST GOT APPROVED FOR MY NURSING TRANSFER!! What a magnificent e-mail that was. I completed my first year of general sciences, and still really felt compelled to pursue a nursing degree so I applied to transfer faculties. I was notified immediately that there are very few transfer seats available and that the competition was stiff, but here I am, ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!
Today I had lunch with my dad at work. I had four hours to kill before I had to pick him back up at the end of the day. After squandering a couple of them at a nearby mall, shopping for work clothes, I found myself downtown with nothing to do. I got in my car and almost sub-conciously drove to the hall where my boyfriend and I first met. And here I sit, in my car, thinking. Typically I avoid such situations because I have a habit of contorting any thoughts into massive anxieties, but as I sit and try as I might to worry about something - anything, I can’t! Do you ever get the feeling that your innards are smiling? That your happiness is literally stemming from the inside of your physical being? That is exactly how I feel right now. I am elated, and no amount of pessimistic thinking seems to pervert that. Sure, I have questions about the future, but I’m learning to, “live the questions”, as Rainer Maria Rilke wrote. “Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”