The day after I got dumped when I was home for Christmas, I dropped a letter off at my ex boyfriend’s house calling him out on all of his bullshit. I left the house looking absolutely glam, despite feeling wretched and made a playlist that I blasted in my car for the drive over. After I rang the doorbell and left the letter on his front step, I treated myself to the most obscene Starbucks drink (one of the ones with whipped cream, and chocolate, and sprinkles and ALL that good stuff). While I like to act put together all the time, it’s difficult to fake it, especially in the wake of something so unexpected and devastating. Inevitably, I ended up tearing up as I sat alone at the Starbucks, mulling over the ridiculous turn of events my life had just taken.
A woman my mom’s age walked over and asked “Is everything alright? I hate to see anyone upset at this time of year!” She hugged me and rubbed my back as I explained that I had just gotten home from another semester at school only to be broken up with by my boyfriend of a year and a half. She hugged me again and said, “I wish I could say or do something to make you understand just how much easier this is going to get. I know it feels like the end of the world right now, but I promise that things will look up!” As she walked back to her table, she paused, looked over her shoulder and said “and for the record, I have a son that would be very interested!” with a wink.
Just as the loveliest stranger I have ever met predicted, things got better. Perhaps even better than when I was in the relationship in the first place. I guess all that’s left now is to find that son of hers…
"You tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more,
tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake. But even when sleeping you could feel him travelling away from you in his dreams. So what did you want to do, love? Split his head open? You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, strange and beautiful; something not everyone knows how to love."